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1Marianne had been two or three days at home, before the weather was fine enough for an invalid like herself to venture
2out. But at last a soft, genial morning appeared; such as might tempt the daughter's wishes and the mother's confidence;
3and Marianne, leaning on Elinor's arm, was authorised to walk as long as she could without fatigue, in the lane before
4the house. The sisters set out at a pace, slow as the feebleness of Marianne in an exercise hitherto untried since her
5illness required; and they had advanced only so far beyond the house as to admit a full view of the hill, the important
6hill behind, when pausing with her eyes turned towards it, Marianne calmly said,-- "There, exactly there,"--pointing
7with one hand, "on that projecting mound,--there I fell; and there I first saw Willoughby." Her voice sunk with the
8word, but presently reviving she added, "I am thankful to find that I can look with so little pain on the spot! shall we
9ever talk on that subject, Elinor?" hesitatingly it was said. "Or will it be wrong? I can talk of it now, I hope, as I
10ought to do." Elinor tenderly invited her to be open. "As for regret," said Marianne, "I have done with that, as far as
11he is concerned. I do not mean to talk to you of what my feelings have been for him, but what they are now. At present,
12if I could be satisfied on one point, if I could be allowed to think that he was not always acting a part, not always
13deceiving me; but above all, if I could be assured that he never was so very wicked as my fears have sometimes fancied
14him, since the story of that unfortunate girl--" She stopt. Elinor joyfully treasured her words as she answered, "If you
15could be assured of that, you think you should be easy." "Yes. My peace of mind is doubly involved in it; for not only
16is it horrible to suspect a person, who has been what he has been to me, of such designs, but what must it make me
17appear to myself? What in a situation like mine, but a most shamefully unguarded affection could expose me to--" "How
18then," asked her sister, "would you account for his behaviour?" "I would suppose him,--Oh, how gladly would I suppose
19him, only fickle, very, very fickle." Elinor said no more. She was debating within herself on the eligibility of
20beginning her story directly, or postponing it till Marianne were in stronger health;--and they crept on for a few
21minutes in silence. "I am not wishing him too much good," said Marianne at last with a sigh, "when I wish his secret
22reflections may be no more unpleasant than my own. He will suffer enough in them." "Do you compare your conduct with
23his?" "No. I compare it with what it ought to have been; I compare it with yours." "Our situations have borne little
24resemblance." "They have borne more than our conduct. Do not, my dearest Elinor, let your kindness defend what I know
25your judgment must censure. My illness has made me think. It has given me leisure and calmness for serious recollection.
26Long before I was enough recovered to talk, I was perfectly able to reflect. I considered the past: I saw in my own
27behaviour, since the beginning of our acquaintance with him last autumn, nothing but a series of imprudence towards
28myself, and want of kindness to others. I saw that my own feelings had prepared my sufferings, and that my want of
29fortitude under them had almost led me to the grave. My illness, I well knew, had been entirely brought on by myself by
30such negligence of my own health, as I had felt even at the time to be wrong. Had I died, it would have been
31self-destruction. I did not know my danger till the danger was removed; but with such feelings as these reflections gave
32me, I wonder at my recovery,--wonder that the very eagerness of my desire to live, to have time for atonement to my God,
33and to you all, did not kill me at once. Had I died, in what peculiar misery should I have left you, my nurse, my
34friend, my sister! You, who had seen all the fretful selfishness of my latter days; who had known all the murmurings of
35my heart! How should I have lived in your remembrance! My mother too! How could you have consoled her! I cannot express
36my own abhorrence of myself. Whenever I looked towards the past, I saw some duty neglected, or some failing indulged.
37Every body seemed injured by me. The kindness, the unceasing kindness of Mrs. Jennings, I had repaid with ungrateful
38contempt. To the Middletons, to the Palmers, the Steeles, to every common acquaintance even, I had been insolent and
39unjust; with a heart hardened against their merits, and a temper irritated by their very attention. To John, to Fanny,
40yes, even to them, little as they deserve, I had given less than their due. But you, you above all, above my mother, had
41been wronged by me. I, and only I, knew your heart and its sorrows; yet to what did it influence me?--not to any
42compassion that could benefit you or myself.--Your example was before me; but to what avail? Was I more considerate of
43you and your comfort? Did I imitate your forbearance, or lessen your restraints, by taking any part in those offices of
44general complaisance or particular gratitude which you had hitherto been left to discharge alone? No; not less when I
45knew you to be unhappy, than when I had believed you at ease, did I turn away from every exertion of duty or friendship;
46scarcely allowing sorrow to exist but with me, regretting only that heart which had deserted and wronged me, and leaving
47you, for whom I professed an unbounded affection, to be miserable for my sake." Here ceased the rapid flow of her
48self-reproving spirit; and Elinor, impatient to soothe, though too honest to flatter, gave her instantly that praise and
49support which her frankness and her contrition so well deserved. Marianne pressed her hand and replied,-- "You are very
50good.--The future must be my proof. I have laid down my plan, and if I am capable of adhering to it--my feelings shall
51be governed and my temper improved. They shall no longer worry others, nor torture myself. I shall now live solely for
52my family. You, my mother, and Margaret, must henceforth be all the world to me; you will share my affections entirely
53between you. From you, from my home, I shall never again have the smallest incitement to move; and if I do mix in other
54society, it will be only to show that my spirit is humbled, my heart amended, and that I can practise the civilities,
55the lesser duties of life, with gentleness and forbearance. As for Willoughby--to say that I shall soon or that I shall
56ever forget him, would be idle. His remembrance can be overcome by no change of circumstances or opinions. But it shall
57be regulated, it shall be checked by religion, by reason, by constant employment." She paused--and added in a low voice,
58"If I could but know his heart, everything would become easy." Elinor, who had now been for some time reflecting on the
59propriety or impropriety of speedily hazarding her narration, without feeling at all nearer decision than at first,
60heard this; and perceiving that as reflection did nothing, resolution must do all, soon found herself leading to the
61fact. She managed the recital, as she hoped, with address; prepared her anxious listener with caution; related simply
62and honestly the chief points on which Willoughby grounded his apology; did justice to his repentance, and softened only
63his protestations of present regard. Marianne said not a word.--She trembled, her eyes were fixed on the ground, and her
64lips became whiter than even sickness had left them. A thousand inquiries sprung up from her heart, but she dared not
65urge one. She caught every syllable with panting eagerness; her hand, unknowingly to herself, closely pressed her
66sister's, and tears covered her cheeks.
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